The first couple of times
I went in
I just took a seat and thanked her for inviting me
in. I never knew what was going to happen or how long the ser
vices would last, but
it soon
became something that I actual
ly looked forward to.
They were always happy to see me, always welcoming of
the interruption of my
arrival.
What
seemed at first like chaos
to me
, became
a
palpable
rhythm to
worship
—
starting slow and gathering steam
—
until someone might begin to shout
or weep or even fall out
,
prompting the whole community to
focus in with prayer,
laying on of hands, tongues, or admonition of an affliction or lapse.
One week Rev. Sanders
asked me to come forward and speak
—
to share a message,
to speak the Word.
I pr
ayed for God’s help. And
I moved to the front of the room and
I opened the Bible
and began to read
—
I can’t remember the passage, but I remember the sensation
—
the strong
pull to trust the moment, to not think my way through how I would share
Good News with
God’s gathered people, but to simply speak from my heart
—
from a
place that really meant something
—
this was the absolute antithesis of phoniness
—
it was truth they wanted, truth about how God was speaking to me and through me
and so I had to get out the way,
I had to let the Spirit move.
This fourth generation Presbyterian minister from KY
—
this
child of two college
professors with a PhD,
let go. I let go of the way I had been taught proper, decent
and in order, worship was supposed to go.
It was a Penteco
st moment
—
words that felt effortless and free, and a community of
faith that heard their own story in my story,
in the glimpse of Gospel that came
through.
We were together in that place, in that sacred space. The trials and troubles we had
all seen in
ou
r lives coalesced in the joy and liberation we
all
understood
—
it was
God’s deeds of power
that spoke our common language.
That first Pentecost
, that day in Jerusalem
—
the disciples were doing as Jesus had
told them. They were there, together
—
the peop
le who loved Jesus
. And after Jesus’
ascension they were praying for what they needed.
This coming together coincided with an especially intense time in Jerusalem
—
it was
the Jewish feast of Weeks that they
held 50 days after Passover
. That meant that th
e
nations were there in Jerusalem
—
Jews from far ranging geography.
The ones who loved Jesus were open, they knew they needed help, they were
grieving, they were confused. And then, a
violent wind
and tongues of fire
—
and the
ones who had been on their kne
es, confused, asking for what they needed
—
began to